Anger

Its been nearly a month since I updated here. That isn't entirely intentional, In fact I did do some updates, but I accidentally posted them on my private blogs. They weren't anything substantial anyways. I'm back babes. I hope you missed me.

Shits gone up and down. My life spent a few weeks as a soap opera, with something good happening at the start of the episode, then it quickly coming to a close in the few days following. The dashed hopes, although daunting at the time, were actually the last steps in my recovery. I am far hardier now than I was this time last month. I don't get upset often now, in fact, things that would have formerly upset me, now make me angry. Though I will pride myself on my composition and ability to stay calm forever, I wouldn't mind letting loose on some train-wreck that deserves it. You ever seen a dancer fight?

What I really can't stand is people that talk down to others. Ingrates who, for whatever reason feel superior. I'm an extremely intelligent person, in honesty, I can't say I know many people on my intellectual level, but that doesn't make me better than anyone else. Sure, I can figure stuff out faster, and do complex calculations on the fly, but what makes me better is my willingness to see and try every angle to achieve the best results. If you're going to blindly preach to me that you know better, you better have a damn solid argument, because I have logic on my side, every time. Unless its a dumb little argument that I made up cause I was bored, chances are I'm right, deal with it.

But anyway, you didn't come here to read a rant (Or maybe you did). But I really don't have anything to say. Things are going great nowadays. I've found my feet again, and I'm living my life better. I can actually go out and enjoy myself. I have friends outside of my typical social circle, and I'm only gaining more. I was a little upset about losing a friend, but it happens.

I'm still a knight. My pathological urges to help those in needs circumvent every other notice I have in place. I want to showcase myself more, and get myself out there and noticed. But there are still a few things that need fixing first. My personal alignment sits stronger in the Chaotic Good than ever before, and that's where I want it to be. I'm definitely healthier now, but I've still got a lot more fitness to gain, and a hell of a lot more toning to do. I just need the proper motivation to fix it all.

I often wonder what people must think of me if they read these blogs? How do I come across as a person? Probably not the way I am perceived by most of you. I try and give you some insight in to the deep world of my thoughts, but some doors must still remain closed to you. Its a secret to everyone, even most of me. Have you ever really thought about how people perceive you vs how you perceive yourself? I think about it a lot, and its one of the main reasons I sought to change myself into the way I wanted them to see me.

I feel like I've been writing for hours, when in actuality its been about 15 minutes. Time seems to lose its path around me sometimes, and I'm not sure whether that's good or bad. On a side note, I made a perfect drink today. I can't even remember what I put in it, but it tastes AMAZING, and its better for you than most of the fizzy crap people put in their systems nowadays.

Anyway folks, thanks for reading this wall of text. I love y'all for taking so much interest. No, really, thanks :-) <3

And of course, one last thing :P

Its spring now babes :-)

Much love, Kex.

Eventuality

I think this is a personal best for actually keeping up a blog, or anything similar, for myself. so props to me.

Its been a wild and bumpy ride last week readers, and one that I'm not all to comfortable of sharing the details of on here. I'm not necessarily proud of what's happened this week, but, given hindsight, I wouldn't have changed it at all. I feel like I'm finally ready to cast aside all of my old doubts and fears, everything that has been stopping me from living my life.

I swear, if this keyboard doesn't stop playing around I'm going to smash it into so many tiny pieces..

Anyway, I think tonight's is just going to be a short one, mainly due to this keyboard. But I guess my thoughts are that I don't know what the future is going to hold, but I'm gonna work real hard to make it what I want. And if you're not going to give me the time and effort I want, then you might not make it there. And I think I can finally say and mean that. I don't need time wasters in my life, I've wasted enough of my own time already.

Kexys